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Blank is how I feel about my writing right now. Maybe lacking is also another word that would describe it. I never expected to be an awesome blogger because first you have to have writing style and then you have to back it up with good stories or funny recants but I have neither. What I have so far is a summary of how boring my life is -- and I actually publish it on the world wide web which is another reflection of my need to be doing what everyone else is doing..even if I don't do it as well. "Onwards, plug ahead" or some quote that began like that sat on my family piano and I would stare it as I was wishing away the whole HOUR that was my practice time. And that's how I feel this very instant. A single day back at work after 4 days off and I want to be doing anything but this. Find your passions, find something that interests you, ok thanks for the advice but IT'S NOT THAT EASY!!! If I knew what I really wanted to be doing with my life don't you think I would be doing it?? After much consideration - about 15 minutes - I start thinking I should settle on something I can possibly grow to love but I start coming up empty-handed there as well.

I know that I want to make a lot of money, and I also know that I want to be in control of my own time. drumroll please ------------

oh wait, i still have no clue about what my next move should be..